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For once...i am just done. Done with SO MANY things.
Today i signed up for the musical and play at UCF for Fall.
it was exhilarating.
Just SEEING the words Musical Theatre, Monologues, Sheet Music, Dance shoes...ughhh it gave me a tingle down my spine.
Going into the theatre office and seeing the photos of performances was about the biggest rush i've had here in a LONG TIME.
this is what i need.
it's amazing how great it felt to just do something so litte!

Then i see auditions for actors at Disney World...it's the day after the schools auditions and after reading all of it's information i realized i really would love to do that too and it got me so fucking excited. For once i feel happy.

Sure there are things that can get me down but ya know what...
I have the most amazing boyfriend who really cares about me and loves me hopefully as much as i love him. And knows me more than i know myself and puts me in the highest state of happiness and bliss.
I have a best friend like no one else...honestly i know deep down no one has what me and nina have. She is my sister and i can confide in for anything and i really DO understand her and i love it.
I have a brother who loves me and cares about me and I'll get to spend alot of time with him in the fall.
I have parents who individually love me and care about me.

and i come home friday.

I dont know what's ahead of me and it's ok. I'm just gunna go with the flow and see what happens...this isnt me..but...i'm too...i have the mind of a 4 year old girl in a pink princess dress. I do wish the world could be like fairy tale. But it's not and this is it. i have to tell myself things are ok to just move on and live...

::sigh::
nevermind...i dunno...